> 4/19/2026 - Switching Web Hosts Again
I switched web hosts again to https://lakes.glamour.ovh/ because my XMPP pal offered and I said "sure, why not?" I kinda have problems with Nekoweb's file size limits & them not allowing searches on the "free" text editor despite it being a basic feature of website anyway. I'll change my nekoweb to an iframe too. I plan to make a RSS feed for both the blog and art pages. So people can get updates, but I've been sick these past 2 1/2 weeks & keep forgetting.
> 4/19/2026 - Why My Attempts to Get Into Gaming Seem to End in Failure
Sometimes a friend will recommend me a game and I'll think about trying it, but at some point, in the process, I end up giving up. Here's me getting into the reasons why. None of these are directed at the games themselves. I don't wanna seem like I'm demeaning gamers and games as an art form.
1) When I get too frustrated, I quit.
I tried playing Persona once and ended up quiting when trying to navigate at one point. I think a lot of people get "gamer rage" when a challenge frustrates them, but me, I just give up. I'm not sure if that's better or worse. Since it still shows a lack of patience from me.
2) Most games people want you to try require payment & pirating games both ends up being too complicated & somewhat riskier than pirating other art forms.
Stuff like the Metal Gear franchise, the Yakuza franchise, Disco Elysium, all sound cool and I'm sure the story and gameplay are awesome. But pirating them always feels like a hassle. The games are almost always in a zip/rar file because the games tend to be split up into various executable files, except when it's just the ROM/ISO. This causes a higher risk for malware because executables and ISOs have more control over your system & the amount of files can be a bit confusing to run at 1st. Granted, there are trusted websites like fitgirl-repacks & steamunlocked. You could argue containerized game launchers, emulators, & forks of WINE on Linux mitigate the issue of risk by giving it less access to your system. However it does add an extra step or steps to the process by having to add it to the game launcher or emulator.
> 4/14/2026 - Always Having an Opinion But Make Sure It's the Right One
When I was on social media, I was always worried about having an opinion immediately or at least some joke. It didn't matter what platform it was. I don't think it was just the social media because a lot of times, I worry about not having anything interesting to say here or saying the wrong thing in real life. I do want to talk about other things here, but I am worried about how to formulate my thoughts. Plus there's the privacy concerns about posting pictures of your pets and getting doxxed & such things. It doesn't help that people misinterpret what I say or I misword things a lot. That said, here it's a bit more managable because I can go at my own pace & while there is some arguing & disagreements on the indie web, it isn't as constant as social media. I also have this concern in the back of my head when I get a bad vibes from an interaction with someone, that I'm "reading too much" into things. I had an ex-friend online who was a mod of a group chat I was in. I kept trying to choose between being charitable to her & being patient but firm with her. But ultimately, I worry I made things worse. Truth is when my gut instinct is right, I often "doubt" it and my gut instinct is wrong, I end up going with it. Maybe this is rambly. But the point is that social media, to some extent, is reflective of real life. The problems with social media: the toxicity, the politics, etc. are all because sometimes people are just like that even offline, but bad moderation and the like amplifies it.
> 4/13/2026 - gemget gemini://tryingoutgemini.no/notthat1.gmi
I'm trying out this protocol, "secret web within the web", called Gemini. It's based on a protocol from the 90s called Gopher & is meant for lightweight text-based websites. You can hear more about it from their website. Despite the title, I'm not using a command line browser or tool for Gemini as of now. I'm actually using the browser, Kristall. I like the favorited sites homepage & the way the theme engine interprets my desktop's theme. The only downside is that since it's an App Image on Linux, it's neither added to the start menu plugins nor the Applications Finder unless I wanna do additional tinkering. Sometimes app images do get added to the app menu automatically, but in my experience, it's rare. But I understand why it's an app image because it's a universal package format & depending on how Gemini works, it might not need frequent updates.
> 3/24/2026 - w3m: https://mysite.net/Screenshot-of-My-Current-Desktop.png
I have it so that each workspace or virtual desktop has its own wallpaper. I also made a user account for work, just in case I get another job where I can get away with LibreOffice or OnlyOffice. It has one of the many Redmond97 themes, a pixel-y font, & 2 rows for the taskbar. I'd show you but I wanna keep certain stuff relating to my offline live private.
> 3/19/2026 - Not Sure How to Balance Privacy with Personal
There are things I wanna talk about here other than tech, like movies, past experiences with jobs, etc. But with more offline stuff, I'm worried about giving clues to my offline identity even though I've probably already shared similar stuff on Discord which is selling that data anyway. Maybe I'll add stuff about tv shows & movies again.
> 3/15/2026 - A Non-Serious Review of a Windows 11 Laptop: First Impressions
I got a work laptop from a family member. I dred using Windows 11, but I know that the latest version of LibreOffice for Debian can not be installed due to dependency issues which sucks because the newer versions are compatible with MS Office formatting. 1st things 1st, I do think the dark mode taskbar & start menu look a bit more sleek than on Windows 10. I hate the light mode and rounded corners for the windows though. I also hate how Windows post-Win8 divided the settings into 2 vaguely named programs. I don't mind having different programs for specific/different types of settings as proven by my experience with XFCE. But even there I kinda hate how Window Manager & Window Manager Tweaks are 2 different programs. I bring this up because setting up a new account & making it administrator was confusing because I assumed they had replaced the Control Panel completely with Settings. This on top of having to set up an online account. Another thing is I noticed when I clicked on an AI app (of which there's multiple) accidentally or just to see what it was, closing it took a long time, even though nothing else did. They also replaced the Windows key or Super key on the keyboard with a Copilot key. Another thing is if you click an icon on your desktop, instead of immediately launching the program, it launches a drop down menu where you can launch the app. Admittedly this might be me just not being used to laptops, since there's no way to differentiate right and left clicks without a mouse. I do think it is more responsive than I thought it would be. But for some reason, it should me an error message when it 1st started up too. I was gonna give this a 4/10 and say if it wasn't for the AI stuff, it'd just be kinda mediocre. But then I remembered that I saw pop up ads in the corner of my screen. Not sure if my family member downloaded malware or it's just a default thing in Windows 11. But make of that what you will.
> 3/13/2026 - A Strange Nostalgia-bait Video on Youtube
Everytime someone mentions AI & Linux in the same sentence, I remember that one guy on Arch Linux who asked ChatGPT how to install Windows Vista & accidentally gave it root access by talking too loud. I never watched anything else from that guy.
> 3/10/2026 - Huge Bot Attack on I2P, Nekoweb, AI, and Stressful Environments
Because of trouble with the sybil attack on I2P and finding out that an AI ignored my robots.txt, I switched to nekoweb. The original plan was host exclusively over I2P but then the sybil attack on the network happened. I2P seems to be working better now, albeit with a spotty connection. I like nekoweb so far. I always thought the main site looked prettier than neocities. The nekoweb also has 2 built-in text editors, one based on VSCode with a live preview plugin which is nice. I also left a friend group. I originally thought I left because of stress. But after being away from them for a while, I realized I had to compromise on my standards a lot in that friend group, not because they're bad people or anything. But because I kept having to choose whether or not to argue over certain stuff and it was tiring. I tried to be understanding about certain things, but it seemed the mods could get away with more than other users, while new users were more likely to be distrusted if they made one wrong move. I don't think they're bad people. I won't get into it because I'm not big on calling people out publicly. But I wanted to vent about it a little.
> 1/17/2026 - My 1st Post of the Year - My New Hard Drive
My new hard drive seems to be working. Sorry to fans of the eepsite because my failing hard drive kept making me have to make a new b32 address several times. I'm gonna style this page later. I feel like switching it up for a bit. Something other than the Windows-style pages.